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just got back from mamak.
waiting for fareez and aril to come back.
not in the current position to sleep.
feeling uneasy i suppose?

theres still so much things on my mind.
mostly the same things ive been thinking about for the past 6 months.
im getting kinda annoyed by the thought of it.
it makes me want to punch someone.

what is there to do?
i cant seem to figure out what to do around kl anymore.

suggestions please.
clubbing? dining?
sports?
activities?
anything free? :D

its been awhile

hello starshine!
the earth says hello! :D
-johnny depp charlie chocolate factory

its 2010.
celebrated the whole night in the car on the way up to genting for 6 hours.
lol.
last minute plans, stupid plan .

went to pd the day after.
had bbq.

was all good.

new year resolutions?
dont have one.

although i do have a few things on my mind i wish to get done.
things ive been holding onto and pending on.

this years so uncertain.
just hope all goes well :)

anyway. u know i dont blog these days due to my livin condition? is that the word? i moving all voer the place these days.
too much to do and see.
catch me on twitter if u wish yea,

loves.

one down a ninety nine to go

i can blog on my phone. Reaaaaaallly?

Anyway,
Last night went to high school crush theme@ helo bali.
Damn it rlly started out dead i was literally dying.

Had another fight with mum.
What is wrong with my family.
Disfunctional giler.

I hate this

One two three, again

Guess what? i got my Nokia E71 White :)



So, i need to do alot of designing and drawing.
My brains just not spilling any ideas.
Its fustrating.

Tomorow:
Might see thahirah, or not.
But all i want to do is just drink, drink until i cant remember shit and sleep.
Im so tired. Tired of thinking and hoping, worrying.
Im not sure if im really giving up.
or im just wanting things to change.
But then. im scared if things would change.
Things would disapear. My hopes, dreams love.
Because somehow ppl around me are changing.
I dont know whats real anymore. Eveyrthings a lie.
I feel lonely. real lonely.

Happy Anniversary :)

1 year 3 months.

i dont need a celebration.
i just need to know you remembered.
and i didnt expect you would at all. :)

i love you.
the one boy no matter what you do, i couldnt stop loving.

Dude,

its been a hell of a week.
i feel numb, my heart aches i just want it to stop.
literally.

things to do:
PARTY TILL IM DEAD.

care to join, contact me. :

He loves me, he loves me not

something that i feel i need to say.

but up till now ive always been afraid.

that you would never come around.

and still i wanna put this out.

you say you got the most respect of me.

but sometimes i feel your not deserving of me.

but still youre in my heart.

but your the only one

and yes there are times when i hate you but i dont complain

cause ive been afraid that you would walk away

oh, but now i dont hate you, im ahppy to say

that iw ill be there at the end of the day

- Broken Hearted Girl, Beyonce

today: 449 days weve been together.

(14 months 3 weeks? )

i love you.

but why am i feeling this way?

am is upposed to?

or is it you?